At the beginning of this post we can all agree that heart breaks are the worst. Be it the first time or the 10th. We give our heart to someone and the day they let us down, they give it back and don’t want us anymore, the day it all breaks is when all hell breaks out for an individual. But adding to the injury can only be staying alone.
Relationship is something where you have the person in your life, occupying almost all of your time and you like it. It’s a constant state of trance you are not aware of being in and with technology connecting us 24*7 the trip called “being in love” is just too strong. Break up and you are out of something you don’t want to be, you want love, you want it more but then it’s no more there. Now in a general scenario we have our friends around, our well wishers letting us know they care and supporting us, you can hang out with your friends and they’ll unknowingly help you move on or maybe at least forget the person who left you for the moment you are with them. Staying alone in a city where you have less friends changes the game.
You thank technology when you move into a long distance relationship because it helps you stay connected with them through the he day, but the same inventions haunt you when you are alone and wanting to talk to them but realised you are no more on their list or maybe you’ve been blocked or they’ll read all you send them but you just won’t get a reply.
You cannot do anything, you are helpless, the one person you knew would have the solution to your growing problem is the reason of this pain. You blank out or fill yourself with thoughts which are insane. You want to die because you cannot handle this, the walls of your house start shutting out on you, you cannot get up from your bed because there is no reason to. You check your phone so many times and there is not a single notification form the one you want it from. Life comes to a standstill and the hopelessness creeps into you, sucking every ounce of the sweet reality that once was. You are now the Center of your own world which has shattered around you. You now have a house with four walls and nothing else to fill it in and make it a home. You check your bank balance and wonder why did I move to make money which I have no one to use with. You become philosophical in your own head and realise your thoughts are plain shit because if you are really good at telling people what they should do with their lives then why are you in a mess yourself.
The calm of your sea is overtaken by the typhoon within. You are now just a piece of puzzle that matches with none in the world.
You are alone.
Let it be. 